A glimpse of u and ma whole world ... converges in to the pair of those eyes.
digging straight in to ma soul… ur ma small universe…
u have started talking now a days keeping one hand on ur heart…
it feels nice and makes me believe in the genuineness and honesty of what u say..
as if i ever doubted what u said…
i asked u to give me a no ..that u don’t love me… but you said u cant do that…
that little thread of hope binds me so strongly to u..
even though i know u do not belong here in ma life but will always be there in ma heart…
You always belonged to someone else... but still connected with me in some strange from…
i fail to understand sometimes… but now I have stopped trying to understand our relationship…
i know now in ma heart that no matter what...its never going to change for me…
its like a marriage oath.. "Till death do us apart"...
but we need not take it again and again its their in the heart and will always remain…
no matter the distance which grows us apart… no matter how much u love someone else…
but the love u have given me is only mine... what u feel inside for me is only mine... no one can snatch that from me...
me hurt when you love someone else is never going to change..
i may always behave outrageously at its mention...
but that will not make you stop loving or stop meeting someone..
out of ma own love i do not like that ..
but as your friend...i don’t want to deprive you of that..
you deserve lot of love and care...
i respect you a lot for the way you have behaved with me...
i adore the way you have loved me in your own little ways...
but the incompleteness of the love i share with you leaves me..
more emptier inside and more lonely than i already was....
and that leaves me think so often… that I either you do not love me…
or the assumptions of the adverse outcome of our closeness scare u...
so you continue to maintain distance...
and with that non communication i end up confused....
not knowing where i am wrong...
its not the loss of trust in you as u said once ... from ma side it will never be…
but its that i do not trust ma self enough to deserve any kinda...
love from u despite the .....
Madness with which i love you……..
A Truth behind life...
From Ritesh Kotian
